One of the most important lessons that I’ve learned in my life has been to receive. While this can be easy for some, for others it doesn’t come as naturally. As a child growing up, receiving wasn’t safe. I grew up in a household where love may be given at times, but then it could equally be taken away in an instant. I also had so many struggles with my family being abusive and my mom being an addict that, to me, life was hard and that’s all it would ever be.
Every part of my being and body believed this and, because of what I believed, everything in my life was continuously difficult and situations were constantly dramatic and chaotic. It was like I was tuned to a frequency of not receiving, with an addition of life being hard. Something that always stuck with me was my mother giving me gifts after she abused me. She would consistently do this and I always associated gifts with abuse, leaving me with the mindset: if someone gives you something they are going to abuse you.
About 9 years ago, when I started my spiritual journey and doing my professional spiritual work, everything did change for me. I realized that I didn’t want to be tuned into these frequencies of life being hard as well as being scared to receive. I saw people manifesting things in their lives and I was fascinated by what they were doing. After working with some spiritual mentors to heal my past and open myself up to this new life and way of living, I was shocked to realize that abundance is available to all of us.
The first time that I ever manifested anything I was blown away. I had manifested around $10,000.00 to come in as fast as possible. It did come in right away! I looked in my mail and there it was, exactly the amount I was asking for and I was pre-approved for a loan. I’d never even seen a letter or an offer like this at the time. I was so excited and amazed that it actually worked. My next manifestation was asking the universe and the divine to help me start my own spiritual business and to assist me in attracting clients. During that time, I was working in the medical field and all of a sudden I started having requests from my coworkers to work with me for readings and healing sessions too. So, I would work with them right at my kitchen table – at home. The month I decided to leave my medical career, a Psychic Australian company hired me and I had access to hundreds of clients instantly. Again the universe and the divine had my back and things that I was asking for were happening! I was shocked and delighted.
The key to everything was that I decided I didn’t want to live in the frequency that I grew up in anymore. I had to let go of my past and see the gifts in it. I had to learn to love myself and know that even though my family hurt my self esteem so badly, I could love myself and create my own self esteem. Although my family didn’t have my back, the universe and the divine did. I’ve learned to have a powerful “ask and receive” relationship with the universe and the divine. The more I received, the more I saw that I wasn’t going to get hurt and that bad things weren’t going to happen. There were no more abuse ties with money. Now, to this day, when I wake up in the morning I ask the universe, “What gifts can I receive today?” I ask what would it take for me to feel amazing, happy, and love the clients that I work with. I don’t answer these questions, but I do let the universe and the divine answer them for me. The answer is incredible and the amount of joy that I have in my life is incredible. I also keep getting surprised because it gets better and better. The beauty about this is that I can help my clients to do the same.